** Topic: Zagreb Diary **
Response  11  of  67
** Written 10:19 AM  Apr 29, 1992 by ark in gn:yugo.antiwar **
Subject: Zagreb Diary

 Zagreb Diary 27 April

Love in tention area or warzone as I like to call it is something different than just somewhere else, it is a mechanism from being together and not being so depended on the other one that you break if  something happens to the other. People don't want really to stay  alone, since when the tentions are raising you never know what will happen.

Last Saturday f.e. we here in Zagreb went to bed with the knowledge that some Serbian pilots had quit the airforce but take their airplane with them, they were planning to bomb Zagreb, was the message. We slept however well that night, but it are those things which makes people stick together. You otherwise never known where you will end up in which shelter with whom.

On the other hand people want to be alone, be strong and survive without help from outside, these two machanism have a strang effect on love relations. One moment people say to you stay here, I need you and the other moment they say I still love you but I want to be on my own.I can understand it and have to respect it, but it is not always that easy.

I don't know if this mechanism is unique for a tention area, it only saw it here very clearly, not only by own experiences but also by just looking around and seeing how this function. Something else I have often problems with and takes a lot of my nerves is waiting all the time, or that plans and appointments are changing all the time, something which has absiolute nothing to do with the war but everything with slavic mentality. It often drive me nuts to find out that I have been waiting for nothing or that plans and promises hasn't been kept. I have talked it over with some orginal

Yugosdlavians which live now abroad and they recognized that feeling. It is fighting a war for yourself sometimes. Lucky enough I knew about it, saw it before when I stayed in Beograd, still it makes the working situation sometimes hard and give you the feeling being absolute on your own. I am looking forwards to the arrival of more volunteers, but it seems to be a hope like hoping that peace will come soon.

On the other hand the discussion on the networks starts, I follow it, but can't put so much energy into it as I would like. Nevertheless something is happening and that gives me hope, hope that this world starts to understand a bit what is going on and that we have to solve this problem together.

Today I have seen Nives again and she went back to Amsterdam to her boys, I gave her all the hope with her I could give, she needs it. As far as we know there will come more deserteurs from Bosnia and from Montenegro and they will also end up in the west and probably in Amsterdam. She needs all the help people can offer her, since she is also fighting her private war against institution and organisational burocraty.

Vesna T. went today to Budapest to talk with the regional environmental centre there, in the hope they can help with some projects, but I wonder if it will work, at least fast, slowly everything will get together, but the question is always how long it will take.

I have been talking with some people in the west by telephone today, asking them if there was anything practical written on Peace War in a country which is not directly the aggressor or a big country which fights a war far away on the other side of the ocean. And what were the international peace activists in Irak doing just before the war ? Shouldn't it be a good idea to redirect all volunteers which are coming to Serbia at this moment or call upon peace activists to go there now. If somebody know something about this qeustions, don't hesitate and write us, what can we do ?

Does uberhaupt have somebody ideas of what we can do to stop a war with peace campaigns. I already would be happy if the direct connection with Beograd could be worked out better so that we can discuse commen strategies.

Love and Peace from Zagreb

Wam:-) a little tired, but still0

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