** Topic: Zagreb Diary **
Response  20  of  67
** Written  1:17 AM  May 10, 1992 by wamkat in gn:yugo.antiwar **
Subject: Zagreb Diary

Zagreb Diary 
Night 9 and 10 May 1992

I get sick of it !!!!
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Sorry when this message is a little hard and not so neutral, but I just watched Slavonski Brod and I am a little confused about the messages I have been reading on the net today.

I can't imagen that anybody in this world is interested in who is right and who is wrong in this bloody war, as long as it continues. I have nothing to do here, I am NOT a CROAT, I am NOT a SERB and I am NOT a MUSLIM. in fact I even don't speak any of the languages here, neither am I busy to learn them (or it is just practical since I am here to learn some words), I loved some Yugoslavia, when ever I visit it, for any type of purpose (as official geust of some official youth or other organisation, as tourist, as western activists, or what ever), as I like so many countries in my continent.

I get sick from the fight here on the net between Serbs, Croats or Moslim or whatever former Yugoslav out there, trying to proof the world that their standpoint is the only real one. Dig into the first days of the history of the world if you want to proof your point. People (man, woman and children) are killed here becuase of those nonsense, every bloody day that this war last. 

Each life what is taken here can be given again, by now wrong or right in world history. All this discussions, all this so-called peace agreements (like the one which was so-called agreed in Graz about splitting BiH in Croat and Serbian regions, leaving the Muslims in a small corner are just BULLSHIT. Those guys can agree what ever they want but they have the thing not under control anymore. So has nobody, no Milosovic, no Tudjman, no Izetbegovic, no UNPROFOR, no Paraga, no Chetnik or whatever. 

Let's come to your senses outthere on the net, it makes absolute no different which nationality a dead body has and it make absolute no different who killed him, in many cases it easely could be the other way round.

Blame it on JNA, blame it on International brigades in Croatian army, blame it on Chetniks, blame it on Utachis, blame it on teritorial defenece, or whatever. Are you going to tell it to the children who lost there father, to mother who lost her son, to uncle who lost his family, the ......

Try to tell them why this madness continues day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute. Is nobody outthere what a gigantic media war and brianwhasing process is going on her on all sides. 

I feel absolute no sympathy for any of the fighting force out here. But I can imagine people defending there loved ones and there lifes. But none of you are sitting in the shelter waiting for the hits, none of you are seeing the refugees, none of you see the people killed in front of their eyes, ..... books, words, television can't express that feeling. I have felt not more than 1% of what most of the people here and abroad went through seeing their country and there people falling apart, getting killed. 

The time for intelectual fights about who is right and who is wrong is over. If somebody know that Craots killed Serbs and Muslim killed Croats and that Macedonias killed Albanias and god forget it. Just please put it on this net, it doesn't matter anymore. You are right or wrong what does it matter.

I can scream at you, shout, cry or whatever, it all makes no sence, nothing in this war really makes sences. I feel just sadness, sadness about all those people who call themselves civilized, members of science use their brains in so destructive ways. Wars are not only the weapons here at the battle fields, wars are the words you use, the impression you give, it is the bloody way you think.

There is no enemy when you are not one creating some yourself, that people are killed with arms here is because there were arms. And therewere arms since somebody thought he had an enemy.

Ask it the population from Vukovar (which was as much killed by the attacking forces at it was let down by their own Croatian government), ask it in Sarajevo, ask it in Osijek, ask it in Mostar, ask in in Bijelina, ask it in even Banja Luka (not yet hurt by the war, but the population is scared shitless), ask it where ever you like to go.

Not only the weapons should be stopped, but also this rumors, this fights among eachother with words. None of you can say their nationality is clean in this war, even I as Dutch guy can blame it on my country, we were too late, too stupid, too whatever....

Start using your brains in finding a solution for a problem of a machine which went totally out of control and try to think in a way which make it possible that people can live together in peace in these countries.

Just stop the killing, also the killing with words, I just get sick of it.

Still Love and Peace from Zagreb

Wam

p.s. writing in 25 minute, without spellingchecker or anything else I was just angry, forgive me.

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